oh damn. time flies. it is february 2020 already.
i have just started classes last week and i am actually pretty happy with my classes. in fact, i love them! also, i just moved to a new flat and although moving wasn't fun, i like my new flat :)
so, life updates:
1. it's 2020 and i am intrigued that this will be like my last year being in my 'teens'. next year i will be 20 and i do feel kind of nervous about that. i mean, my age will make me more of an adult (despite the fact that it is just a number) which means i will have to show a more mature version of me and... more adult responsibilities(?)
2. i am loving my classes <3 if i haven't mentioned in previous posts, i am currently taking education studies as my major. this semester, i have two classes. the first class is talking about the philosophy of education which is very intriguing and fascinating. the other one is looking at educational issues, contemporary and historical, and therefore we look at history and also current events, which are also interesting for me. so far i have been loving uni. it has been fun and i have started to enjoy living alone.
3. new flat. i just moved flats and i like it here. it is less noisy and cleaner. and it's closer to the bus stop hehehe...
4. i am currently reading 'red queen' and i have been crushing on cal huehehe... but i am still on the beginning part of the story so i don't know yet... like i am not 100% sure that i like him because his brother is also nice. i'll update on my novel guy crushing thing :D
5. i am here to tell you that jasmine rice is the best! it's fragrance is like ughhhhhhh in loveeeee...... i am a jasmine rice fan now!
6. trying to be more social these days :) i am trying to not be socially awkward and be more friendly... although yeah, i am sometimes still awkward but i am trying. and i hope i will make progress in the near future.
7. i am still having some life struggles. such as talking about certain people. but i am working on it. friends who notice this, please do remind me heheh i won't be mad :p
8. ohhh i went on a trip with a few friends the end of 2019. it was fun. we went around a few cities and went sightseeing. i did enjoy having friends to travel with, however... i do get tired a lot with the immense amount of human contact. i mean, every personality tests i have taken states that i am an extrovert, and that i get energy when i am surrounded by people. but there is this introverted side of me that screams 'you need your me time!' like when i am around people for a huge amount of time. so i am very confused, am i an extrovert? am i an introvert? why do i feel that way when i am around people? but why do i also feel sooo lonely when i am all alone? so what am i? ambivert? i don't know. but i just know that i love being around people however i also do need time for myself after a long day with people.
basically, recently i have been getting to myself more too :) i am trying to keep improving myself, because i am not a finished product and i can always add good personalities in me and try to stop the bad ones.
the past month, i have been extremely happy (excluding the pms period). and i am glad that i have been happy. i enjoy my moments being anxious and take those moments as the time to practice controlling myself.
in conclusion... lots of things happened the past month and also in 2019, and i am glad it all happened. i am grateful for the good and bad ones. and i am looking forward to what this 2020 has in store for me :D
with much love,
ennik xoxo
i have just started classes last week and i am actually pretty happy with my classes. in fact, i love them! also, i just moved to a new flat and although moving wasn't fun, i like my new flat :)
so, life updates:
1. it's 2020 and i am intrigued that this will be like my last year being in my 'teens'. next year i will be 20 and i do feel kind of nervous about that. i mean, my age will make me more of an adult (despite the fact that it is just a number) which means i will have to show a more mature version of me and... more adult responsibilities(?)
2. i am loving my classes <3 if i haven't mentioned in previous posts, i am currently taking education studies as my major. this semester, i have two classes. the first class is talking about the philosophy of education which is very intriguing and fascinating. the other one is looking at educational issues, contemporary and historical, and therefore we look at history and also current events, which are also interesting for me. so far i have been loving uni. it has been fun and i have started to enjoy living alone.
3. new flat. i just moved flats and i like it here. it is less noisy and cleaner. and it's closer to the bus stop hehehe...
4. i am currently reading 'red queen' and i have been crushing on cal huehehe... but i am still on the beginning part of the story so i don't know yet... like i am not 100% sure that i like him because his brother is also nice. i'll update on my novel guy crushing thing :D
5. i am here to tell you that jasmine rice is the best! it's fragrance is like ughhhhhhh in loveeeee...... i am a jasmine rice fan now!
6. trying to be more social these days :) i am trying to not be socially awkward and be more friendly... although yeah, i am sometimes still awkward but i am trying. and i hope i will make progress in the near future.
7. i am still having some life struggles. such as talking about certain people. but i am working on it. friends who notice this, please do remind me heheh i won't be mad :p
8. ohhh i went on a trip with a few friends the end of 2019. it was fun. we went around a few cities and went sightseeing. i did enjoy having friends to travel with, however... i do get tired a lot with the immense amount of human contact. i mean, every personality tests i have taken states that i am an extrovert, and that i get energy when i am surrounded by people. but there is this introverted side of me that screams 'you need your me time!' like when i am around people for a huge amount of time. so i am very confused, am i an extrovert? am i an introvert? why do i feel that way when i am around people? but why do i also feel sooo lonely when i am all alone? so what am i? ambivert? i don't know. but i just know that i love being around people however i also do need time for myself after a long day with people.
basically, recently i have been getting to myself more too :) i am trying to keep improving myself, because i am not a finished product and i can always add good personalities in me and try to stop the bad ones.
the past month, i have been extremely happy (excluding the pms period). and i am glad that i have been happy. i enjoy my moments being anxious and take those moments as the time to practice controlling myself.
in conclusion... lots of things happened the past month and also in 2019, and i am glad it all happened. i am grateful for the good and bad ones. and i am looking forward to what this 2020 has in store for me :D
with much love,
ennik xoxo
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