i feel extremely guilty. i am feeling so bad. i did a bad thing. as I claim to belief what i belief, i do sometimes fail and make mistakes. i admit that. and one thing i am extremely guilty of is disliking and judging someone before even getting to know the person first hand.
so i am going to put it out there. despite the fact that i tell people around me not to judge others, i do still fall into that mistake of judging. the past month, i have been haunted with guilt as i have mentioned before. i have judged a person, without knowing what exactly happened. and what exactly happened was also none of my business. i just hate being that gossip girl person and that saturday, I failed badly. i was gossiping about this person that i barely even knew and i felt so bad afterwards. i do still feel bad right now. but hey, i failed. i made a mistake. what i ought to do isn't to feel bad and shrink into a ball and disappear. what i ought to do is to stand back up and fix my mistake and stop doing it again.
i am trying. i have been trying not to be judgmental. why? because who am i to judge. everyone has their own personal opinions, views, likes and dislikes, etc. so i do not have the right to judge them. and if for instance, what they are doing is harming themselves, i still should not judge. i should seek assistance to help them out of that self-harming situation. but to judge them, it is a big no from me.
however, despite all these statements i made about not judging, i do not say i have completely been successful at putting them into action. i am a human, and sometimes, although i do not want to admit, i do make mistakes. i might have accidentally judged someone and i am truly sorry for that.
to the person i have judged or have said things that aren't very pleasant, i am deeply sorry for what i have said. i truly apologize to you for saying mean stuffs and i will not do it again. i am sorry that i have gossiped and bad mouthed you. and i would love to change.
talking about change, a word came to mind. character. what exactly is character and why people's character change?
character came from the greek word "charassein" that means 'to sharpen, cut in furrows, or engrave'. well, just from that word we can conclude that characters change, obviously. because if we cut or engrave something, the thing changes form right? i believe same goes for us and our character. it changes overtime. and i hope it changes to the better.
focusing on the meaning to sharpen, i'd like to believe that our characters should become sharper and not more dull. and i'd also like to believe that sharpening our characters is not a delicate process. well, we're being cut and engraved here, how are we supposed to say it is a smooth business? it is obviously a difficult process, to be cut and engraved and sharpen. but i believe it will be for the best.
what draws the line between judging and character? for me, i do not want 'judging' to be part of my character. i would like to cut off my judgmental side and replace it with a more compassionate character. i would like to sharpen my compassionate character and make my judgmental side very dull. i would love to change, people. and i hope we can all change for the better.
who we are this very day isn't who we are going to be years later. since we are all changing, there isn't a correct definition for who we are today, therefore, we shall not define and judge others.
this post brought me to a lot of thinking. and i hope it can benefit someone out there.
:)
with much love,
ennik xoxo
so i am going to put it out there. despite the fact that i tell people around me not to judge others, i do still fall into that mistake of judging. the past month, i have been haunted with guilt as i have mentioned before. i have judged a person, without knowing what exactly happened. and what exactly happened was also none of my business. i just hate being that gossip girl person and that saturday, I failed badly. i was gossiping about this person that i barely even knew and i felt so bad afterwards. i do still feel bad right now. but hey, i failed. i made a mistake. what i ought to do isn't to feel bad and shrink into a ball and disappear. what i ought to do is to stand back up and fix my mistake and stop doing it again.
i am trying. i have been trying not to be judgmental. why? because who am i to judge. everyone has their own personal opinions, views, likes and dislikes, etc. so i do not have the right to judge them. and if for instance, what they are doing is harming themselves, i still should not judge. i should seek assistance to help them out of that self-harming situation. but to judge them, it is a big no from me.
however, despite all these statements i made about not judging, i do not say i have completely been successful at putting them into action. i am a human, and sometimes, although i do not want to admit, i do make mistakes. i might have accidentally judged someone and i am truly sorry for that.
to the person i have judged or have said things that aren't very pleasant, i am deeply sorry for what i have said. i truly apologize to you for saying mean stuffs and i will not do it again. i am sorry that i have gossiped and bad mouthed you. and i would love to change.
talking about change, a word came to mind. character. what exactly is character and why people's character change?
character came from the greek word "charassein" that means 'to sharpen, cut in furrows, or engrave'. well, just from that word we can conclude that characters change, obviously. because if we cut or engrave something, the thing changes form right? i believe same goes for us and our character. it changes overtime. and i hope it changes to the better.
focusing on the meaning to sharpen, i'd like to believe that our characters should become sharper and not more dull. and i'd also like to believe that sharpening our characters is not a delicate process. well, we're being cut and engraved here, how are we supposed to say it is a smooth business? it is obviously a difficult process, to be cut and engraved and sharpen. but i believe it will be for the best.
what draws the line between judging and character? for me, i do not want 'judging' to be part of my character. i would like to cut off my judgmental side and replace it with a more compassionate character. i would like to sharpen my compassionate character and make my judgmental side very dull. i would love to change, people. and i hope we can all change for the better.
who we are this very day isn't who we are going to be years later. since we are all changing, there isn't a correct definition for who we are today, therefore, we shall not define and judge others.
this post brought me to a lot of thinking. and i hope it can benefit someone out there.
:)
with much love,
ennik xoxo
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